Where I'm at...

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Where I'm at...

Post by JMG » Sun May 07, 2017 6:45 am

I'm in a rough place and feel very torn. I'm confident of what truth is and of what I'm "owed" as a Christian. I know this life is not promised to be #blessed as I see it put so often on facebook. I know the footsteps of Christ are footsteps of suffering. But, I sure would be lying if I said I didn't desperately want and extended break from it. Honestly, I want to come back to America. But I don't want to leave the Hewa either. Also, I know that if I come "home" that doesn't excuse me from a life of service to God and that life will be marked by suffering. That's not to say that there can't be joy in suffering...we see that in the life of the early disciples in Acts. I am just not experiencing joy right now and the times I have experienced it have been short lived over the last few years. Every small victory has been quickly followed by immense hardship. I feel like my heart accepts this as acceptable because of what lies in wait for us all who are marked by Christ's forgiveness, but I'm still finding myself on a very big level wanting a reprieve. Those two things are creating in me a heaviness that I've not really experienced before.

This missionary life doesn't afford me close personal relationships on a consistent basis. So, I hope you will indulge my ramblings. I guess it's therapeutic in a way to write this stuff out. Crap....praise God we have an eternal reward at the end of all this.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by coco » Sun May 07, 2017 6:56 am

Praying.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by hugodrax » Sun May 07, 2017 7:18 am

Vent away, brother. I'll listen.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by Jocose » Sun May 07, 2017 7:36 am

hugodrax wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 7:18 am
Vent away, brother. I'll listen.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by JudgeRusty » Sun May 07, 2017 7:49 am

I cannot say that I have anywhere near the similar experiences you have faced. But I go through similar feelings as you describe. I can offer company in your questions, but cannot offer any soothing words.

The Scriptures tell us not to be surprised by this: "Man that is born of a woman is of few days, and full of trouble. / In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
At times, it seems adulthood's main purpose has been to hammer these truths home.

I do praise the Lord for the impact you have made on the Hewa, your co-workers, the people you know back home and folks like me. Your fearless work to see Christ glorified in practical means is encouraging to me and has to be pleasing to the Father.

I pray for Satan to be bound, for a hedge of protection to be placed around your family and for a shade of comfort and rest to be placed upon you for a season.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by DepartedLight » Sun May 07, 2017 8:50 am

coco wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 6:56 am
Praying.
... amen
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Post by JimVH » Sun May 07, 2017 10:11 am

Praying, bud.

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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by durangopipe » Sun May 07, 2017 10:28 am

I dearly wish you could fully know the impact your witness has had on others, not just the Hewa.

You would never be one to become boastful, but knowing this, hearing it from a person like me whom you've never met (and so many others here) might provide some comfort. I know I speak for more than myself.
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Post by Joshoowah » Sun May 07, 2017 10:52 am

You and I really should talk more because I'm in a similar boat.

Praying.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by FredS » Sun May 07, 2017 1:23 pm

JMG wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 6:45 am
. . . So, I hope you will indulge my ramblings. I guess it's therapeutic in a way to write this stuff out. . .
King David and the other Psalmists would agree with that.

If we accept that all scripture is God-breathed (or simply God-allowed) then we can see He wanted to record the laments of even the most faithful. Some people see many of the psalms as a downer. I find comfort in them. In knowing we're not alone in the s***-storm. In saying out loud "I'm tormented. Life sucks right now. Why is this so hard? Why do the unfaithful slide right along and I get dumped on? What should I do? Who should I turn to?"

Praying for you J.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by wosbald » Sun May 07, 2017 1:25 pm

+JMJ+
coco wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 6:56 am
Praying.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by John-Boy » Mon May 08, 2017 11:40 am

wosbald wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 1:25 pm
+JMJ+
coco wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 6:56 am
Praying.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by Sir Moose » Mon May 08, 2017 11:52 am

Praying (and for you too, Joshoowah).
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by tuttle » Mon May 08, 2017 12:06 pm

What everyone else has said, and definitely:
JudgeRusty wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 7:49 am
I do praise the Lord for the impact you have made on the Hewa, your co-workers, the people you know back home and folks like me. Your fearless work to see Christ glorified in practical means is encouraging to me and has to be pleasing to the Father.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by sweetandsour » Mon May 08, 2017 12:12 pm

Praying, as always.

When I'm going out to distribute Bibles, especially in places I'm nervous about, thinking about you guys in PNG and other fields helps give me courage.
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Post by OldWorldSwine » Mon May 08, 2017 12:33 pm

Praying for you.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by Winton » Mon May 08, 2017 5:05 pm

I too often get homesick for a place I have never been. Praying.

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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by DepartedLight » Mon May 08, 2017 5:36 pm

durangopipe wrote:
Sun May 07, 2017 10:28 am
I dearly wish you could fully know the impact your witness has had on others, not just the Hewa.

You would never be one to become boastful, but knowing this, hearing it from a person like me whom you've never met (and so many others here) might provide some comfort. I know I speak for more than myself.
This. Emphatically.
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Re: Where I'm at...

Post by JMG » Tue May 09, 2017 7:20 am

Very thankful for you guys.
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Post by Rumblebuffin580 » Tue May 09, 2017 9:45 am

JudgeRusty wrote:I cannot say that I have anywhere near the similar experiences you have faced. But I go through similar feelings as you describe. I can offer company in your questions, but cannot offer any soothing words.

The Scriptures tell us not to be surprised by this: "Man that is born of a woman is of few days, and full of trouble. / In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
At times, it seems adulthood's main purpose has been to hammer these truths home.

I do praise the Lord for the impact you have made on the Hewa, your co-workers, the people you know back home and folks like me. Your fearless work to see Christ glorified in practical means is encouraging to me and has to be pleasing to the Father.

I pray for Satan to be bound, for a hedge of protection to be placed around your family and for a shade of comfort and rest to be placed upon you for a season.
Yes and amen to this. Praying!

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